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better defining transition...

Even as I increasingly ponder the idea of transition in this blog, I will concentrate more on the idea of mental instead of physical transition.

There is good reason to resist physical change for the following reasons

- Despite not functioning normally as a male, I am heterosexual
- I don't despise my genitalia
- I currently pass relatively well as a woman
- There is too much risk involved in affecting my children adversely.

Living as a part time woman over the last year has been extremely pleasing. Perhaps I can extend that to full time living by retirement unless I decide that working as a consultant in my field is a viable option.

Physical transition is not off the table but it would require that my disphoria be so incapacitating that I must proceed accordingly. Since right now I don't foresee this ocurring I will continue along my aforementioned strategy.

I have come to terms with the science, the pseudo science and the religious road blocks are being rapidly removed. What is left is how I truly feel and how that feeling ties into a lucid and workable life plan. So the only person I seek permission from is myself and I am happy to finally begin to view things in this light.

I never dreamed I could ever get here but somehow I did. I made choices I might not have made all those years ago if I knew then what I know now but thank God for my beautiful children. They shall have first and foremost consideration above all.

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  1. There are always benefits and drawbacks to labels. You can expect there to be concrete answers to the sciences but human personality is not easily defined.
    While I evny our ability to pass I accept that I do not pass. Like my old football coach said that you "Can't coach speed" as a T person you cannot coach size.
    One night last week I dressed and went to a local gay bar. I have been there before and I am accepted but I find that most of the folks there have as little understanding of T people as the general population. In talking to some of the people that I have encountered they seem suprised that I am married and that I am not homosexual. I take each outing as a blending but not passing guy in a dress as an opportunity to do some outreach.

    Pat

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  2. That is very awesome Pat. Outreach is very important an while I do not overtly advertise that I am male when I am out and about as Joanna I would never deny it where anyone to ever ask me. Its only happened a few times and each time its been a positive experience and a chance to learn about other's perceptions of us as well as for me to teach them...

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